Full story at ShelleyLubben.com:
My journey into the porn industry started in 2005. I went by the stage name Andi Anderson. When I first began, I would work and go to school Monday through Friday and then go to LA on the week-ends. I did every hardcore type of scene (anal, double penetrations, gangbangs, etc.). After two years, I moved to LA (porn valley) and lived the life of money, fame, drugs and constant partying. At first, when I moved and chose to perform in pornographic films, I was so adamant about NOT doing drugs and alcohol. But, after a year or so of that so-called “glamorous” life, I sadly discovered that drugs and drinking were a part of the lifestyle. I began to drink and party out of control! Cocaine, alcohol and ecstasy were my favorites. Before long, I turned into a person I did not want to be. After doing so many hardcore scenes I couldn’t do it anymore. I just remember being in horrible situations and experiencing extreme depression and being alone and sad. I got a boyfriend in the industry which ended up dragging me into an even darker depression. I remember being in a dark room, drunk and high on cocaine. I wanted to kill myself. Suicide seemed to be the only thing that felt right for me. I was hurt over and over, so many times in this industry.